*peeks in, runs and
jumps over the back of the couch, lands with limbs akimbo and pillows flying*
SuP people. I’m just up, sipping hot chocolate and
watching the new adventures of pippie longstockings. I love this movie.
Pippie harkens me to
my childhood daydreams and those childhood day dreams keep me entertained so
much that …OH SHIT THEre IS A SPIDER….
Ok, SORRY! I forgot
there was a spider right there in this movie…. What was I saying?
Childhood day dreams
and… oh, now I remember. My daydreams keep me so nicely entertained that I forget
to do what I’m supposed to be doing.
Well, its not that I
forget, I just have writer’s block.
No writers block is the
same as another’s. though we all have commonalities.
Me, I’m one of those “everything
is a block type of chics.
I’m much more of a
story teller than a writer anyway. The
prospect of wrangling the words in my mind into acceptable grammatical order is
daunting even for the most technically trained editor.
Multiply that by a
billion for me and you have what in my case is the most epic study in stage
fright ever known to any writer ever.
I’d much rather TELL you a
story that put it to paper.
And then there’s the
other things. Life, Drama. Illness and distractions and well there you have it.
My drive to WRITE is on the back seat, but alas all of those are excuses that I
use to cover the big excuse…fear.
That stage fright is
just a big ole case of fear. Performance anxiety if you will.
Will it be
entertaining, Will my editors revolt and vow never to work for the publisher
again. Will it be good enough to stand
up next to my peers, will it be good enough to be pirated, How much can I make
before it hits the black market ( hey I got real tangible worries aka BILLS). Have
I typecast myself into a genre. Is
Nicole Givens kurts going to make me
walk the plank for consitantly being late late late.
SO, I bake another
cake, whip up another meal, surf the net watch tv sleep
Anything other than
write.
And I entertain you
with as many anecdotes as I can…because I’d rather tell a story for free than charge for a story and
not get paid.
But like all writers,
I eventually get over myself long enough
to finish something ….its just not going to be today. Today I’ll have to attended
the business of moving…I hate that… but I’m excited.
Having said that, I’m
taking my Hot Chocolate back to the couch and hopefully going to sleep. Before
I get caught.
I promise, I’ll be
closer to on time next month…. And what with a move and yet the need for a new
daytime job…you know I’ll have something worth telling.
ps I'll give the person who knows the name of this font a big round of applause-- and maybe something else.
Answer in the comments!'
Drea!
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